Sunday, July 5, 2009

holding pattern


I need to clean out mom's room. I have not touched a thing. It has been over four months. I need to do it now while I have time. Once the school year starts I really don't have much extra time. But I can't seen to get started. It's so personal. I don't want anyone to touch it. I want to do it; I don't want to do it.
I feel like I'm in a holding pattern. If I was burning it up in some other activity, getting something done, I'd feel better, but I'm not. I'm not getting very much of anything accomplished, and I always have a list of things waiting to be done, especially in the summer.. I'm doing the minimal daily activities, very minimal. Still the day is gone in a blink of an eye and then...it's one more day I coasted through.

And I understand the logic of the situation. I recognize all the little sabotages. I know that the lethargy will lift. But, I am standing still.

Photo by Peaches

1 comment:

glnroz said...

and in my opinion,, it is ok to stand still as long as you want to,,